2014 is almost over. The end of the year just a few weeks away. Lots of changes this year for me, including the loss of my father at the beginning of the year. Strange I come home sometimes and expect to see the blinking light on my phone and hearing his voice. It is very surreal that he is no longer here. He was such a HUGE part of my life. But the last few years he started having ailments, cancer then dementia the father I knew was slipping away.
He kept telling me he was not going to be around much longer. He talked of seeing woman in white with long white hair. And even in the hospital he was seeing angels and asking for his Mom. My Dad was a very strong man. He knew he was losing his mind, and he did not like it. Nor was he going to allow anyone to put him in a nursing home. Just like his mother did years before, he checked himself out. He left on his own terms. And he was able in a moment of clarity to tell me that he appreciated all I had done for him, and that he loved me.
I’m at that age when losing parents begins to happen and I have seen my friends suffer from the same loss. So my Mom is still alive and well and very loved and appreciated, and hopefully around for a long, long time.